Well guys here I go again, blogging that is. Somehow this all seems so pointless to me. I always feel like this is such a waste of time, I mean who actually ever reads this stuff anyway. I can't imagine who even has the time these days. But I guess if no one read these things blogging wouldn't be so popular. And right about now if there is anyone reading this thing you must be thinking, "If your so skeptical about this whole blog thing what the hell are you doing writing a blog?" That is a very sensible, logical question. But as you can see from the name of my blog, it is a "Christian" type of blog, designed to target a more "Spiritual" type of a reader. And we all know that walking the path of a Spirit led Christian is not always logical. Sometimes, especially in the "natural" world, it's not even sensible. We know that as Christians we are supposed to be walking by faith and not by sight.
So here's the deal, I love to write, I always have. Writing for me has always been like having my own personal Shrink. I write down whatever is going on in my head and suddenly it makes sense. Somehow I don't feel alone or crazy anymore, it just makes everything in the world okay for me. I also see it as a beautiful opportunity to share some of my funniest, weirdest, most creative, even sick, twisted thoughts with the rest of the world. It's a friend that's always there for me. So as you can see it's not like I don't like to write. I absolutely love it. I even love the whole idea of this Blogging thing. I mean, it's so cool that the whole world can log on and read each other's crap and then actually even talk to one another about it. It's an opportunity for those of us who may have thought that they would never have a word published, to actually kind of be published. To cool.
But the thing is, even though I like to write, I never thought that I was any spectacular writer and that anyone would actually read my stuff. So a few years ago, after praying for many years for God to reveal to me His purpose for my life. He starts by telling me that I am supposed to be writing about my spiritual experiences and life lessons and stuff. The first thing I say is "Okay God, I'll write this stuff down, but how is anyone gonna ever get to read it, with my schedule, and cash flow issues, it'll take me a life time just to get published." I thought, "This is great, I'll be obedient by writing, but getting published, well that's a whole other thing. God knows, that I don't have the time or the money for that." And almost as soon as I finished saying those words to myself, I hear about this new inexpensive way to get your work to the public. This internet thing where you can publish your stuff for free on your on website, that you don't even have to host, called a Blog. Well there goes my excuse. So about three years ago I started blogging. I would do it off and on. I believe I have started and stopped three or four sites in the past few years. I guess the problem was that not only did I not believe that anyone was ever gonna read it, but who the heck was I gonna help? I mean it's not like I'm some spiritual guru or something. I'm just a regular ole Joe or (Josephine) struggling to stay on the straight and narrow path of Christianity. Not hardly worthy to give, especially write advice to others. As I said, I'm no "Hemingway", I'm an average writer at best.
But somehow, no matter which way I turn, God keeps bringing me back to this place. Why I don't quite know. As much as I try to reason with Him and rationalize with God, and try to get Him to let me off the hook about this thing, He just won't let it go. So what's a "Christian" girl to do? It's been said that it's better to obey than to sacrifice. Now see, that is a quote from scripture, but don't ask me exactly what chapter, or verse, I'm not that good yet. :)
Anyway, I know that I know that I know, that God is preparing me for something. Some assignment, some purpose that He has designed for me, still yet to come. Even though I can't quite see it clearly from this place I stand at today. And even though I have absolutely no faith in myself as a writer, I do have absolute faith in my faith in God, to lead me down the right path, the one that He's designed me for all along. And when you think about it, isn't that what life is all about? Having faith in what you believe in, and acting on that faith, maybe without ever really knowing the result of your actions. I think that in the "natural" world, they call that "Blind Faith" don't they?
