Today I find myself in a very difficult circumstance. I’m sitting between the proverbial “Rock and
a hard place. I am in a no win situation. Everyplace I turn to search for an answer or
a glimmer of hope, I constantly run into a brick wall. Every corridor I look down I seem to find
darkness, my situation is looking pretty bleak. Daily I review my circumstances, struggling
to develop strategies, deciphering formulas, hoping that today I will uncover
some tangible evidence that will give me the sum of a different answer than the
one that I got yesterday and the day before that. But the only evidence I find is to the
contrary, facts, like numbers are cold and hard, black and white, they don’t
lie or take pity on anyone, not even a good hearted person in an unkind situation.
So what should I do, do I quit? Do I run and hide? Do I give
up and disappoint myself, as well as everyone who is counting on me? I rack my
brain every day for an answer, for a way out of this, for a way to still win
this fight and come out ahead, but still I have no solution. And in my moment of weakness I find that I’m
so desperate that I start to pity myself.
I even heard myself asking, out loud, “Why me Lord?” “Why am I here in this place, and how am I
going to get myself out of this, Lord?”
And it’s at that time, at my moment of weakness that I
became my strongest. It’s at that time
that I heard the answer, and I got the answer simply because I asked. I felt the answer come up from way down deep
in my spirit. I could almost audibly
hear God say, “Don’t worry, I’ve got this, I’VE GOT A PLAN.” And then I felt a peaceful, serene sense of
calm wash over me because I realized that I was here in this place because this
is exactly where God wanted me to be. He
put me in a place where to the visible eye there would be no solution to my
problem, because after all, faith is not a tangible substance. God put me in a place where I would have to
lean and depend on Him ever so closely; just to make it successfully through
each day. He wanted me and everyone
around me to see that when I make it through this thing, and I don’t just mean
make it through by the skin of my teeth, but thriving, victorious and prosperous,
that He did it, because He was the only one that could. He put me in a situation so impossible that
only He could get me out of it. And when I do, people will look at me and the
results, scratching their heads, squinting their eyes and scrunching their
noses saying, “How the heck did she get through that, and now she’s actually
better off than she was before? HMMMM…
go figure, they will say.”
But deep down in my heart I know that even though at times I
may get weak, I still know that GOD’S GOT A PLAN! I know that I am not here in this predicament
by mistake. I know that God has known
even before I was born that I would someday be in this place, and He already
had a solution to this and to all of my problems. I know that He already has all of my
blessings, opportunities, big breaks, resources, and the right people lined up
waiting for me. “For I know the plans that I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to
prosper you and not to harm you, plans for hope and a future.”( Jeremiah 29:11)
God says that He knew us, while we were
still in our mother’s womb, even before we were born. This
world is God’s and everything in it.
He’s got every of our lives worked out already, He is the only one that
is in complete and total control.
For me when I find myself starting to freak out, in my times
of weakness, when all I can seem to do is focus on the chaos spinning out of
control around me, these are the times when
I should be focusing my eyes on how big my God is and not how big my problems
are. When times get rough I remind
myself of all of God’s promises and of all of His characteristics”. I also know that when I am weak, discouraged
and running low on faith that is just the enemy, trying to plant seeds of fear
inside of my subconscious, to distract me from something. Maybe I’m getting to close to a certain
blessing or a breakthrough in some area that I have been praying for? Maybe
he’s trying to distract me from helping someone that I may soon encounter that
I am supposed to help in some way?
Perhaps he wants to throw me off of the path I’m on because I’m finally
fulfilling my purpose? Who knows why,
but one thing I am most certain of is that nothing is too big for God; He does
His best work when He has to make a way out of no way. I really believe God loves these types of
situations because, we get the blessings and He gets the Glory. That is just the way He likes it and that’s
just the way it ought to be. And if for
some reason things don’t work out like I thought they should, I must put my
trust in God and know that it worked out just as it should have. “Nevertheless,
not my will, but yours be done” (Luke 22-42b). Ultimately my solace comes from knowing that
although His ways are not our ways, God’s will is always going to be better for
me than any plan or solution I could ever come up with by myself.
UPDATE: Not 24 hours after I wrote this blog, even
before I had a chance to publish it, God came through for me in an unbelievably
awesome way. He literally changed my
circumstances and outlook overnight. He came
through for me so much bigger than I was praying for, faster than I could have
ever imagined and better than I know I deserve.
All I can say is Thank You Lord, you are true to your promises, and if
we give our will to you and put our trust in you, you will do for us whatever
we can believe in you to do. God’s
blessings are only limited by our level of faith in Him.
